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Story time

What motherhood changed for me.

 

i was a child who was very fearful. but at the same time there was this strength and this feeling of belonging when i was in nature. i have a lot of admiration today when i think back to her.

as i grew up i believed i had to just function. needless to say, it depleted me. faster than i could have imagined.

i packed up my oh so regulated life and moved to australia. the wild countryside allowed something in me to unwind and as the months passed, i gained a lot of clarity.

i felt drawn to berlin so strongly. and i knew i was ready to have a family. the most magical relationship came into being once i arrived and the clarity and ease stayed with me for quite a few years. until i became a mother.

it was a transformation so strong that it took my breath away.

it was like i shed some armor. and there were wounds underneath. my children were holding up a mirror to me and i was smart enough to not look away. and so the wounds started to heal.

today i have no time for what does not feel right. i turned my back on a career in architecture and decided to put my visual education with where my heart is.

i let what is important to me flow into my work and i enjoy the fruits.

 

when I look back on myself as a new mother, I have so much empathy for her. can you see her gazing into the depths of the mirror? she knew everything and she knew nothing. she was becoming.

 

Date

16. November 2020

Category

postpartum